Friday, July 26, 2013

i am alone . . .



                    I am alone where things are blurry . . .
                                            there is a line
                          I cannot cross . ..
                                     the will to kill the weary . . .
           the lust to drive a wedge
                                       . . .  I am alone
                             in this dream . . .
                                               a place I cannot fathom,
                                     bottomless
                                            and dark as a womb . .
                                 where nothing
                                                    but the heartbeat
                                   holds me . . .          
                                                     I am alone
                                    where songs are foolish
                                              of love and fear
                        and death . .
                                                 and flowers bloom
                                                 where no one has the vision
                                   or smells the sweetness
                                           of solitary discovery . . .
                            I am alone and
                                          my bones are broken
                              I weep but no tears do fall . . .
                                                      I am alone in spirit
                                      and function . . .
                                                               nothing is real . .
                                    but reality
                                               itself . . . . . 




Saturday, July 20, 2013

and the trees dance on and on . . .


I haven't been lost. . .
as I round the corner,
another year -
another day


I haven't been found,
either,
but the blue of the sky
reflects
in the corners of my eyes
where a small tear
like a lake
full of life
passive and
still under the setting sun
a fire blooms
and rages silently . . .

I once dreamed
there were faces
in trees
and they danced with me
in the night as
they sang to me of death
and life
and death and life



and that it took a hundred thousand
eternities
for one small molecule of water
to pass from here to there . . .
I am the lost one . . .
I wander in circles
in a crowd of stars
where I am seeking
a field of flowers
over a hidden sea
drilling

into my heart;
the beats
irregular and
the blood drained
by the dark of the night . . .
there is a white moth
flickering,
like an old movie,
the story of my life -
I am here
in the end,
raveling
the thread,
as a lacy wing
blooms before my face,
I was wrong
when I told the truth. . .

sweat drips from my eyes,
salty and sweet,
dark heart shaped splashes
sullenly evaporate
on this warm living soil
where a molecule of water
dies
and dies again

(Written under melancholia on the eve of my birthday)